Its been awhile since I've had the time to update my blog. What once was my venting space has become a thing of the past. Ironically, this is where i come to share what i wont on facebook...basically where i come to explaaaaaain my life. :) since i last visited my blog, we got engaged and in the weeks since, ive experienced a whirlwind of different events and emotions. I never thought i would ever love anyone as much as i love him now...and it grows everyday.
I am in love with a man who can make me laugh when i want to cry. He knows me and wants whatever will make me happy. He is ready to take care of me. He loves me for me. My motto has always echoed Marilynn Monroe when she said, "if you dont love at my worst, you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best." He loves me at my worst and makes me want to be my best for him. He has made me ready for the first time in my life to honestly let someone into the deeoest corners of my heart. I love him with all i have and he has finally begun to prove that he loves me with all of him. I wake up everyday hapoy with the life i have been blessed with, but never content or prideful because he has taught me that what the Lord has given me, he can also take away. He encourages and supports me in my faith. His relationship with his Heavenly Father reassures me that ours will be a house of the Lord. i fell in love with his strong sense of commitment as a full-time missionary and continue to discover new things to fall in love with each day. The way to my heart has always been the ability to make me laugh and while he always makes me laugh, ive also fallen in love with his laugh and cherish the moments when we are laughing together. I have learned not to run when times get tough and i am more than ready to spend the rest of my life with him. I am grateful to the Lord everyday for bringing this man into my life and plan to devote myself completely to showing the Lord just how grateful i am. :)
Feels good to be so blessed.
